Monday, December 13, 2010


Isn't it funny how jeans fit everybody in different ways?
I know that's an odd question but hey it was the first thing that came to mind. Wow haven't been on here in a long time, it's almost christmas and I haven't gotten anything for anybody... I'm only 17 and don't have a job (wish i did) and so the only way I can get people gifts is if I do stuff for my dad's wife. She's not my step mom I won't call her that for many reasons I'd rather not post online.
I've been really bored lately, like really.

I think I need to re-think my life a little bit but then again I'm just rambling here while listening to Paramore. I've come to the conclusion that there are a lot of weird names out there, interesting but weird all the same.
I find it funny that when I'm writing or ranting like I am now, I tend to sound way different than if you'd be talking to me face to face. I use words I don't even know the meanings to and then when I look them up I find that they mean exactly what I meant. I don't know why but I just see that as funny.
I'd really like to see snow this year for Christmas but I live in California so not gonna happen unless I take a long drive north. I kinda hate Christmas, maybe it's because I stopped believing in santa a little early or maybe it's the fact that I haven't seen my mom in almost two years. It's my fault too (long story). I seriously just want to go live in a cave somewhere where no one except a select few will bother me.
I find the idea of barely surviving very... Thrilling. I mean I'm sure it's not like it is in books but when I'm reading a book about survival and scavanging for the things humans need I feel very excited. I love imagining that I could be on a plane and crash land in the ocean only to find a small bit of land to live on till a rescue team comes. Or like in The Hunger Games (great books by the way) I think though it would be scary to be in the arena I would find a strange joy about it.
well there's my little one minute rant so go do something useful drink some water and take deep breaths, you never know when you'll be able to again...